E-mail

I am certain that the e-mailing adventure boosted my productivity 3fold! I got stuff done on that day's list and the next day's list! It rocked!! YAY for e-mail!!

In other news I am still searching for an internship with two major leads; SpringHill and Youth Haven Ranch. I think both places would provide me with good opportunities and both are also Christian organizations, which is just what I am looking for to test out mixing my major with full-time ministry. I am excited to see where this will go. I finally feel motivated to figure out my life and it feels great. I am not longer running from the inevitable, but running towards a great opportunity to finish my degree and serve children.

I am currently reading two very enjoyable books. One is The Magician's Nephew and the other is Glass Castle. One is a children's novel as many of you may well know that is the prequel to The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe. The other is a New York Times best seller, a memoir by a lady with a screwed up childhood. It's comforting to read about suffering at times to know that I haven't seen the most screwed up things there are to see, and to know I am not alone with family disfunction. I would recommend both for your leisure time!

Well, I am going to go now; I was supposed to get off the internet about 30 minutes ago, I can't help it, I'm hooked! Hope all is well in all of your worlds!!

Bread in My Pocket

Yesterday it was ants in my pants, today I have bread in my pocket. I find myself sitting very carefully as to not squish it and make a crumby and buttery mess. I have it wrapped in a napkin, and I am just too full to eat it.

Anyway, on to something more important... maybe...

Today I am going to buy a few things: socks, a journal (spiral bound to put all my journal posts and greeting cards in, face wash, and perhaps a book of sudoku puzzles or something else exciting for my brain.

I think this weekend I am going to clean out my car, and my room. I will give away a bunch of clothes that I am attatched to, yet am not wearing which should slim down my closet! I am trying to get rid of as much unneeded items as possible before I have to move out in May. I want my life to be more simple and less full of junk I don't need.

I sent myself an e-mail asking if I did all the stuff I wanted to get done today. There's nothing like being your own friend for accountability!! I wish Jesus used e-mail, it would help me out!! So, I am testing the theory that if I think about checking my e-mail all the time, a reminder there will certainly help me get things done... we shall see!

Have a Good Day!

Ants in My Pants

OK! FOR REAL!! I think I have ants in my pants!!!

I was sitting at Bible Study eating a cookie when an ant crawled across my lap. I didn't think too much of it because as many of us know, the Larzy TV room is infested with all sorts of unwanted guests. Soon after this another ant crawled across my lap and I started to get itchy. Ew... I still attributed the ant to the room and moved on... When the third one came along I was really started to question. I finished up Bible Study and forgot all about it until just now. I was in the bathroom minding my own business when all of a sudden an ant crawls across the floor by my feet. AHHH!!! What the heck! Where are these ants coming from? I'm infested! I am all itchy and squirmy now. Is this a plague?? I hope not! I would much rather have frogs! ew.. Gosh, I feel gross!

Moving on... I was originally going to title this entry "A New Look", but the ant issue got precedence. I am trying out this new template for my blog. It was pink for a few days, but I decided it was too pink. Now it's blue... I wish there was a happy medium between these two gender related colors... I guess that would be purple, but I didn't see any purple ones and I don't know how to make it myself. Anyway, don't be surprised if I change it five more times.

So I guess I should update on my life...hmm...

It's going. I have no desire to finish my life in the direction it's currently headed technically, although I am enthused about what God has ahead of me for my far off future. I don't think I ever imagined I'd live past the age of 22 so I didn't think about planning or even fathoming my current life stage, which is internship, then graduation, then job. I think I just assumed I'd get in some car accident, be murdered, or get leukemia. I'm not saying this light-heartedly either, I really think these things.

So, now I have a predicament. I am 22 and I am still living... Now what?!? My life has pretty much been the same other than thinking of that big question.

I did however have a sweet day on the 18th for Krista's birthday! It will definitely be a day to remember when I am old and gray.... If I make it that long ;) We had a whole Birthday Day for her! Pizza, Gymnastics, Ultimate Frisbee, Dinner at the Broadway Grille, and a Twister Tournament. It was so great to be with friends, be outside and play, eat good food, and sport some school spirit while flirting with the T-shirt guy with Krista. Man, he was good looking. Way to score his love B-day star! How could he resist?? The day ended the next day at oh, I don't know... too early to mention. It was definitely rough to get up for church in the morning.

My life will probably continue just the same, hopefully my working out will do me some good, and some cool stuff with IV will happen. I'd like to find my internship VERY soon as well.

I'm signing off for now, catch ya all later!

PS. I still feel itchy

PPS. My cat that I high-lighted in a December post is now dead. She died yesterday.
RIP Blossom, you were a good cat, except for when you bit me... I will always have the scar to remember you by.

CRAP!!!

I had a really good post and then it erased because of pop-up blocker and me trying to fix it! UGH!!!

What a crappy crap crap!

ok, so here's the short of it:

I'm home, and there is drama... what's new... I'm in the middle... yuck

Maria is awesome, learning so much, so adorable

Matilda is big a fluffy now

Spent time with the following people: Grandma, Sandy, John, Maria, Dad, Dee, Joe, GUMC choir, GRandma Noll, other Noll affiliates :) and talked to mom on phone

Plans for tomorrow:

Going to oxford to check out place for internship, light window-shopping and grocery shopping with Gram, Card Club for snacks and friends, then staying at sandy's

Looking forward to getting back to the place that feels like my real home, where I feel comfortable and part of something good, more than one good thing actually.

Wanting to talk to my fiendish fiend cause she always knows what to say to make my life seem less jumbled.

Still mad about the stupid entry getting deleted! PIECE OF JUNK!

NEW STUFF NOT INCLUDED ON OLD DELTED ENRTY... couldn't help myself, when I get started I just can't stop!

I realized a new appreciation I have for survivor tonight. Tears came to my eyes (mind you I just typed ears instead of eyes...lol), when they Saluted Dan after getting voted off. That's not my appreciation though. My appreciation is that one can really examine how the game goes and compare it to normal society and how people function. No matter if it's a game or not no one can seem to just walk all over everyone involved, there are always friendships, aliances, and other relationships blooming even in the midst of lies and deception. People seem to need community, or a partner that much that it interferes with winning. I'm still thinking this through, but I think this says a lot about peoples' need for community, acceptance, support, and confidence in normal everyday cirsumstances. So, yay Survivor!

There is some shampoo-in hair color sitting on the shelf and I am very tempted to use it. It says "Just for Men" on the box and that's what intriuges me. Could it really be that different for men? I have short hair, does that count?? It's so very tempting... It says "So natural no one can tell" on the box too. Now let me ask you, why on earth would you want to color your hair if no one is going to notice?? That's silly. It should say, "so natural it doesn't look fake" if that's what they mean. Knowing this country though that phrase is probably already tradmarked! Did you know that Happy Birthday is Copywrited?? Yeah, and it's not even by the person who wrote it! How dumb eh? That's why at restaurants they have to sing those annoying songs, their not aloud to just sing happy birthday! dumb dumb dumb I tell you.

Ok, I have added enough to make it seem worth trying to publish again. If this screws up I swear I'm just going to write two words, "CRAP CRAP" on the next one!

A Month...

Well, it's been just about a month since the last time I updated. Todays update is really just an outlashing of my emotional staus, which until today I thought was fine... maybe it's just a bad day, or maybe everything has just added up and I can't contain the fire.


**Note: The following chunk is me free-writing, do not be surprised if you find yourself shaking your head, thinking I'm irrational, or wondering if I am ok... This is the real me put out on the web, the real things I am thinking and feeling... as scary as they may sound, I'm not crazy, just desperate**
At this moment I want to throw in the towel... I can't go on. How am I supposed to figure out what I am to do with my summer let alone my life?? I'm in the wrong profession, wearing the wrong clothes, the wrong hair style, the wrong place and time, everything seems wrong. I am lost at what my role is in many situations that feel so big that they may crush me and more importantly the main players in said situations. I feel alone. I could talk to someone, but they won't care, and if they do care, they won't do anything, and if they would do anything they don't have time. My friends are good, but I don't have a clue on how to ask for their help. I feel like from some of them I'll know their answer, others I am afraid of their answer, and still others I don't know if they'd even answer. I want to run far away and live in a place where things don't happen like they do in America. I am stuck on so many questions.... like, Who and where is my spectrum of influence, how can I balance being in communion with God while in community with people, why does everyone always give me the crap line of "Just rely on God first, the rest will fall into place" ?? OK, I do believe that, but it seems like people use it as an excuse to not have to care. And how does the fact that God made us, designed us for community, to do all things together, have everything in common and sacrifice as the other has need? Other questions I want answers to: Why can't I do anything for myself, but I can do things for others, why do I feel lonely when I am sitting right next to a person I love, How do I embrace friendships the way God intends it? And, why do i live here, here in America? What does that mean for who I am to be for Christ? Oh, and why does everything seem complete, good, fruitful and glorious when I am doing it with a partner or group? I can't sleep, and I am starting to lose my appetite. I am scared to sleep because when I do I have horrible nightmares. I can't eat because I feel nausiated when I do. I want to live a full, productive, God glorifying life. God is teaching me so much right now. I want to take it all and put it into action. I really feel though that I can't do it alone, I can't just take control of all the "adult" responsibilities on my own and still have any motivation for living for God. It's all too much. Why is it too much?? That makes me feel lame! I need a friend, a friend that I can atleast count on to support me through all of this, not that I have to spend 5 hours a day with them, but to know that someone cares enough and wants the same from me, or at least feels comforted at the prospect of my willingness to serve and love them. I know I've had this before, but now it's gone. When I had it I was so much better at life. I was fun to be around, I was joyful, and fulfilled... Am I just being a sissy or are these feelings valid. It seems like the people who give me the advice of Rely on Only God and then he will bless you with people already have people... and I don't know that they relied on God first. UGH! I have so many things to do and I want to do them, but the practical things in my life get in the way.

This is Joshua 1:9 --- Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
Boy do I ever need that verse right now. I am so terrified of living right now. And I most definitely need God with me where I go!

God, give me the strength to face the things that I need to, the things that suck and the things that are wonderful, even if it seems like I am doing them alone. I want to rely on you, and I have been, but maybe not enough... Let me not be jealous or covet what other people have in relationships, but rejoice in what I have with you. And, please bring me someone to satisfy these longings, these needs if it is your will. God I want to be awesome for you, but that task seems to huge for me to even think about. God shape me, hold me, use me! amen.

Giggle Pants

Hi. I am not really giggling, but I feel like it would be funny if I were. So, lets just pretend.

This week has been pretty full. My life doesn't seem too hectic, it's on the line of having just enough, or not enough to do. I still have to find more work somewhere, hopefully at the Res. Restaurants. I am looking for another 10+ hours somewhere!!! :)

So far I am enjoying my food service jobs. Tues. and Thurs. I made Wraps in Robinson, and Today in Carey I swept, stocked, and served (there wasn't really anything for me to do so I kept getting switched around). Later this evening I am working in Merill... where I will clean some more. I have a blister on my thumb from the two hours of sweeping I did. Other than the blister this week has been GREAT! I love making food and serving people!!! I met knew friends, and got free meals! YAY!

Now I am headed home for some cleaning, packing, and showering... I am very dirty. Tonight I am going to Grass Lake for a retreat with IV. It used to be called Genesis, but now it is called Sanctuary. I am looking forward to getting closer to my small group, and catching up with other friends that I haven't really talked to yet this semester. I hear there is a pool and hot tub at the conference center, so I am very excited!!!

Last weekend I did the Leadership Summit, and it went really well! The speakers were enlightening, and I got to meet some good people, specifically middle-aged married men. I got to know the pastor more and it was really inspiring to hear some of his passions and convictions in a more personal setting. The biggest thing I took away from the weekend was this; I am OK where I am... being that I am in a point in my life where I don't know what the heck is ahead of me. I have a blank piece of paper in front of me and I can do so many things with it. The key to staying on the right path is looking to God for guidance, keeping Him as my light and my path maker, and submitting to him some of my wishes if need be. I felt very encouraged to use my open-mind about my future to the best of my ability to give God the most glory!!! YAY for affirmation!!! Thanks Jesus!

Ok, so now I am going to go home and do all of my stuff before my next shift!

Peanut Butter Toast

Hi everyone!!!

So, lately I have been wanting peanut butter toast about 5 times a day. Maybe it's working at the daycare and rediscovering my love for peanut butter and jelly. Maybe I just need some nuts in my life! Who knows... all I know is I like it, I like it a lot.

So, my job search continues, but I have made some headway. So far I am employed in five different places, three of them being in the Residential Restaurants on campus. I wish I could get a higher paying job somewhere, but this is going to have to work for now. I still haven't heard from the church about the position I applied for because they haven't done anything about it yet. It is somewhat frustraing, but perhaps God is trying to teach me something!

So, back to my jobs. They are as follows; Day Care worker Mon. and Wed., Day Care Aide Mon., Tues. and every other Sun. night, Baker Assistant (Krista, I had to hold myself from laughing when I signed up for this one) every other Friday morning, Dining room worker every other Friday lunchtime, Custodial work Every other Friday evening, Exposition person Tuesday and Thursday lunch time, not to mention two shifts I've already picked up for greeter and variable in Carey Dining commons. For those of you familiar with CMU I am working in Robinson, Towers and Merrill Dining Commons!! WOOT! Basically I am all over the place. My task now is to not mess up when I work where!!

So now that I will have 44-54ish hours of obligatedwork time per week, plus whatever shifts I pick up on top of that, and the four hours of class every week, I'll have to make sure to have some fun with the free time I have !!! Man-oh-man! The craziness of it all!

Other than working and trying to find jobs, I have been working on finances, organizing my life, cleaning, going to church and InterVarsity, hanging out with friends, and playing on the internet. It's acctually been a nice start to the semester. My palm pilot and I have become good friends and will continue to be over the next 15 weeks!

Next on my plate is to get my student loan, hopefully a scholarship or two, and find a second internship!! I want my internship to be somewhere totally sweet, so that's what I'll be looking for.

Photos from my birthday dinner will be coming soon. Here is a picture of my baby puppy "Storm"(I might change her name). I will get her once I live in a place where I can have a doggie. She is very small and cute and soft.



This is Storm showing you her good side!




These are 3/4 of the babies, Storm is on the left.




This is Storm Sleeping... zzz...




This is Princess, Storms Mom riding on the Mini-chopper!!




A close-up with her hott goggles!!




This is Spike, Storms Daddy. He is trying to look
handsome and thoughtful

So, that's my life minus my birthday pictures with some added doggy fun!

Oh yeah! This weekend I am doing a conference at church called Leadership Summit. Bill Hybels, who wrote Too Busy Not to Pray (a brilliant book) is speaking tonight. Tomorrow, John Maxwell, Ken Blanchard, my pastor, and Rick Warren, author of Purpose Driven Life are all speaking! I am looking forward to getting a spiritual boost as well as learn some sweet stuff from smart people! Hopefully I'll see some friends and make some new ones! YESSS!!!

Have a GREAT weekend!!!

OH MAN!!! What a New Year!!!

PRESENTING: DAH DAH DAH DAAAAHHH!!!! Cute Couple # 1!!!!

Well folks it finally happened!!! Jessica Relitz and James Allen are engaged!!!! He did it on New Years Eve and Jessica wasn't expecting a thing. Actually a few hours prior she was telling me they wouldn't be engaged until spring time.

If you go here you can see the party hat's that he wrote "will you marry me?" on, as well as the ring, happy engagment pics and Sophie the pup moping. It's all so exciting and romantic and lovely! I can't wait to squeeze them both very tightly!!

In other news, I have a cold and feel very sad that break is almost over. Although I have been working I have had a little bit of an excuse to slightly slack, and had gift money to spend and a chance to travel and hang out. Soon it will be on to other tasks like work, and more work.

Tricia is leaving today after staying almost a week. It has been an enjoyable adventure to have her around. We went up to Manistee for New Years eve, sat around and watched TV, and both of us got sick with different ailments throughout her time here!! It's been great!!

Tomorrow night or Friday Morning I am going home for a last Hoorah. I am celebrating my birthday and visiting the Griffins! I am very excited to end the break with some good quality time that includes food, ice cream cake, Hobby Lobby, the Griffin pants, my bubby, setting my cat free in the orchard, my baby girl, and presents!!!! It should be a good one!

PEACE YO.

Doing my thing

I'm alive... still doing the job search/working for Julie/starting at the Day Care tomorrow.

It's almost New Years and it's strange that another year has gone by. Don't know what I am doing to celebrate a year past and a new year to come, but for some reason it feels imiportant for me to recognize it more than I have before. I always liked New Years celebrations, butit was mostly for the fun, friends, and food. We used to have a sleepover at my friend Aimee's house. We'd stay up all night. Watch for the countdown until the ball dropped kiss everyone and then go back to the party we were having including games, food and St. Julian's!! The girls would stay with her and the guys would stay with James who lived behind her. In the morning Aimee's mom would make us pancakes and bacon. I have many fond memories of those years!

This year is weird. I will be in Mt. Pleasant and I don't have any definite plans. There are things I'd like to do, but don't know if they will work out. There are people I'd like to spend it with, but most won't be around. Tricia will be with me though, so we'll have to be sure to make it meaningful.

10 days after the New Year begins I will be 22. I am not sure how I feel about that. For some reason I have been wanting everything in my life to have meaning lately. I get bored with unmeaningful things and I feel more enthused to make things matter. Maybe this is what happens when one turns 22... they get more sentimental about lifes milestones. Or maybe it's just me.

I am off to take Julie (the elderly lady) to the hospital. I was already there this morning because Heather was dehydrated because of a stomache flu of sorts and she needed a ride. I've already got two hours of sitting in a waiting room today under my belt, why not make it three or four!!!

goodbye

Cats Stink!

UGH! So, not only do I have a demon kitty in Mt. Pleasant, but I have a biting kitty in Goodrich.

This is my cat:

Her name is Blossom... like Apple Blossom. We met about 10 years ago when she was born and I named her. She was the 1st of the litter and my new friend. We've been through many happy years minus some nibbles and scratches here and there. Today was a sad day for us.

We came home from my grandma's house after eating pizza, opening presents and sharing funny stories across the table. Grandma's house was very pretty and shiney, it was great!

Anyway, I was going about my business getting ready to travel back up to Mt. Pleasant for the night with my Bro and I saw Blossom sitting at the bottom of the stairs; Mind you she was recently paralyzed from a blood clot in her spine and so does not have use of her back legs from the knee down (If a cat had a knee). Anyway, it was the first time I saw her since the tragic blood clot and I was trying to be extra nice! She was rubbing up on me, nuzzling my face... awww!!

Then I picked her up to put her on my lap to pet and cuddle her. As soon as I put her on my lap she BIT me!!! HARD!!!! AHHH! I moved her away and my hand started oozing blood. As I walked up the stairs it kept oozing! WHAT THE!! She bit me really hard all the way down to a vein in my hand below my thumb. Her whole mouth went around that area to the other side of my hand, but the main puncture was on the palm of my hand. I went and showed my family and they helped me clean it and bandage it. It hurt a lot. I didn't cry but I wanted to, not because of the pain, but because my cat bit me. What a jerk. She really should be put down for biting someone so hard, but I think we all feel sad for her poor paralyzed legs! My dad just ordered her a wheelchair off E-bay. Anyway, now I am throbbing and bitter! lol

Here is a picture of my sad injury:


I'll post pictures of my presents and our evening at Grandma's later. Right now I am off to Mt. Pleasant!

My Monkey Gift

This is me with my monkey hat and scarf from my step-brother Joe!!! Aren't I cute??



Trying to be cute...




Playing it cool!!

More gift modeling to come soon!!!

It is Finished

My internship at Masonic Pathways is offically finished and I am in a new week of transition. Just when I was getting used to working there I am now done and have to find something else to do. I have some leads on some jobs. I think I will be working for a Day Care in town, and also helping out an older lady in the community. I am hopefully meeting her today.

I will also be applying to Target, Mejier, maybe Kroger, Tj Max or some other places like that. And of course I will be working for Dorothy watching her kids while she works nights.

It is going to be strange not having internet for a few weeks. Since the school is all closed up, I won't have an opportunity to use it. That's ok, it will make me more productive.

This past weekend was full of socializing. Friday I came home and babysat Maria for a few hours while Sandy and John went to a party. Saturday we had Noll family Christmas (Sandy's Family). It was a good day. I had good food and great company. The little ones are growing up so fast, it was nice to see them again. I got some good gifts too!! Sunday we had an 80th birthday party for Grandpa Noll. It was a pretty good time, but I got kinda bored toward the middle. Didn't know all the people there, but then my dad came so I got to sit and talk with him for a while. I was at the church from 9:30-6:30!! Everything ran smoothly though, and Grandpa was very appreciative for the recognition.

Now it's Monday and I am feeling weird to not be at Masonic, but making the best of my day by finding a new job. I will be traveling back to Mt. Pleasant in about 20 minutes. Hopefully I will find something delicious to eat for lunch! OOOO! And I am going to take a nice hot shower and bath... Ahhhh, so good!

I'll be updating soon I am sure, with news from the farm. I have Christmas Eve with my Dad's side and Christmas Day with my Mom's side. I think it's going to be GREAT!!

PEACE OUT!!


PS. My little Matilda was staying with Auntie Megan this weekend. I hope she didn't cause too much trouble!!

Health Lesson # 1

What is scabies?
Scabies is an infestation of the skin with the microscopic mite Sarcoptes scabei. Infestation is common, found worldwide, and affects people of all races and social classes. Scabies spreads rapidly under crowded conditions where there is frequent skin-to-skin contact between people, such as in hospitals, institutions, child-care facilities, and nursing homes.

What are the signs and symptoms of scabies infestation?
Pimple-like irritations, burrows or rash of the skin, especially the webbing between the fingers; the skin folds on the wrist, elbow, or knee; the penis, the breast, or shoulder blades.
Intense itching, especially at night and over most of the body.
Sores on the body caused by scratching. These sores can sometimes become infected with bacteria.

That's right folks, I have come in contact with scabies I don't know how many times in the last month. I don't think I have it yet, but it can take up to 6 weeks for symptoms to arrise. I have been itchy all day just thinking about it. Oh the life of one who works in health care...

Other than being itchy my last Monday at Masonic Pathways was rather nice. I was busy all day long, and I ran an enjoyabe program... my last one of the semester. We decorated Christmas cards for friends and family. The residents really seemed to enjoy it.

Tomorrow is my last Tuesday, so weird!

The Last Hoorah

Well, here I am in the extended hours study catching up with my personal life via internet before I start on my academic life via Microsoft Word!

I have one more week of internship, a busy week at that. I have four resident assesments, one or two programs still to develop and implement, 2 chart audits, 5 program assesments, two staff parties, as well as regular programs and 1:1 with residents!!! It's going to be full, full of excitment, writing, evaluating, saying goodbye, and a bittersweet end on Friday. I am happy for my experiences there and the friendships I have made with both residents and staff. I cannot even imagine not seeing them everyday. To some of the dementia patients I have quite an attatchment;

Emma, who cries all the time, for reasons I once did not know, but now know it's because she is so severely confused. If you talk to her though, or have her fold towels she stops.
Gladys, who always tells me, "Oh honey, you look so pretty". She also asks if she can stay that night and inquires about a cost.
Gladys #2, who always calls me a son of a B**** unless I give her a cookie, then I am a saint.
Alice, who doesn't speak, but every once and a while I can make laugh.
Edna, who always laughs at everything I say.
Martha, who is very demanding in the most humourus way asking, "Lady, could get me a saw, I just want to saw these straps off"... later.... "Lady at the desk, lady at the desk I know you can hear me, get me some scissors, I'll take good care of them".
Naomi, who will tell you to shutup unless you approach her with a question instead of a statement.
Bud, who has Spine cancer and is often in pain. He is quite funny though when you talk to him and has come on to me a few times... hee hee

There are so many others that I adore and so many that have died since I've been there that will always have a place in my heart. I feel blessed to have met them and served them.

Tonight I am going to watch at least part of the Survivor Finale at Kristins, and then finish my project/paper for my internship. It should be a good night. Ohhh, and I am going to make a wish list on Target.com for my dad. I think I am going to ask for kitchen stuff!!! Wooo!!!

I hope to journal as the week goes on, hope all is well with everyone else!!

Disconnected

Well, this was the most disconnected holiday weekend ever!!! To the left you will find my disconnected face.

It all started on Thursday when I stayed home alone upon orders of my grandmother. I had planned to travel to her house (45mins away) for a delicious meal and a chance to see her and grandpa after 4 months of nearly zero contact. She said the roads were too bad.

Instead of turkey (which I must mention is one of my most favorite foods), I ate pizza rolls for lunch, took back movies that I had rented on Wednesday (2 for 1!) and decided to go to Mejier while I was out to make something "special" to eat for dinner. I can't really afford to do a thing like that, but I thought since it was Thanksgiving, and I was lonely it was justified enough. Well, justification never wins, and I should know this by now, but once again I am slapped in the face with my own actions.
So, I went to Mejier and was walking around the isles thinking that I'd get anything that looked good... just go for it! I passed by some chicken, pizzas, more chicken, frozen dinners... nothing seemed pleasing. Then I saw them, BUTTERY BISCUITS!!! AND THEY WERE ON SALE!!! Oh boy! I decided I'd get some, but needed something to go with them. Across the way I spotted frozen chicken bites that you warm up in the microwave, like the chicken you find at a chinese restaurant. Then I remembered the chinese restaurant Great Wall was open, cause I noticed it while returning my movies. I said, what the heck, I'll just go get some!!
My adventure continues.... I order General Tso's chicken and an order of Crab Rangoons. Mind you, I only like chinese food that is not sweet and General Tso's chicken is supposed to be spicy. I also don't really like crab at all, but the other day some co-workers of mine got some crab rangoon's and I liked them cause they didn't really have much crab in them that I could tell. So I get my loot, spending too much on it, but justifying that I'd get a few meals out of the deal so it was worth it. I brought it home, opened it up and eyed it expectantly.... I couldn't wait for spicy and cheesey goodness!
SOOOO.... the food sucked! The chicken wasn't even a hint spicy, not even a little burn! it tasted like candy, sweet and sticky! eWWWWWW!!! If I wanted candy I would have gotten some sweettarts! Then I thought, "well, at least I have the crab rangoons!".... no dice. They were so FULL of crab! I couldn't even pick it out! I ate around the edges and called it good. Basically I wasted too much money on crap that I forced down just to teach myself a lesson.

Thursday ended and I was looking forward to get back to work on Friday just so I didn't have to be alone.

Friday was good. I planned a special party for the residents. We had a "t" party! There was tinsel, tang, tea, TINGO, Turtles, and Triscuts! Everyone had a name tag on and so their names started with 'T'. It was a grand time.

I came home with another boring night ahead of me.... and that is just what it turned out to be. Sarah took her laptop home and the library was closed so I didn't even have the internet to amuse me.

Saturday was a productive day, I cleaned a lot! I feel a lot better about living in my apt. now that it's clean. I sorted through old and unwanted food giving away what I could and pitching the rest. My kitten and I had a good time bonding, but it just wasn't the same as a good human!

This morning I was REALLY prodcutive. I did the following all before 9:30am (that should tell you how early I got up... ew again) I cleaned out my refrigerator... acctually took trays out and scrubbed! I cleaned the microwave which was disgusting! I did some more dishes, cleaned the dining room table, and I finshed making my curtain for my room. Of course I discovered that the kitten peed on it so I have to wash it before I put it up, but at least it's done!

I went to church at 10:30. It was a good service!I sat by a cute couple, talked to some friends afterwards, played a new intstrument made of wood... it was indonesian, but I can't remember the name of it.

Now it's now. I am finally connected with the world through the good ol' internet and there are no e-mails to be found, no friends online, nothing... what a sucess! heh. I think I am going to go clean my bathroom. It's the last room to be spiffed and then the whole apt. will be clean(besides sarahh's room!).

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!!!

The Truth comes out... this is who I was really with this weekend and as you can see we were having a wonderful not to mention romantic time!

All Turkeys Eve

Yes it is true. Today is the Eve of many a Turkey's plunder and humiliation. Personally I would not like to be stuffed and slowly cooked for several hours and then put on display only to be cut up and eaten. All of this is only after getting ahead chopped off, feathers pulled and a good ol' fashioned gutting! Gee, I love Thanksgiving!!! Seriously though, I love eating Turkey! Thanks God!


Today I work, then I go up to my Grandma and Grandpa K's for Thanksgiving day. My mom, her girlfriend, and my brother, and one of my uncles will all be in attendance. I hope it is a good day. The last time I went to Grandma's with my mom and brother for a holiday we all had a terrible fight!

On Friday I work again, and then it's the WEEKEND!!! Almost everyone will be gone this weekend so I think I might be productive and clean up the apartment really thuroughly. Then I will write my paper that I was supposed to start Sunday. So far I am behind 1hour of work time. So much for my 20 minute plan!!

So, to all who celebrate Thanksgiving, have an enjoyable weekend away or close by!

Things that make one question life

If you thought that people in your life were lying to you, or as Lisa would say, are saying things that are "hard for you to believe" when they say it, how would you react?
I mean, this happens all the time... and maybe people aren't even lying, but distorting reality, leaving out details, or bending the truth. How does one know how to trust a person who does this on a regular basis? Does it mean one should just take a hint and find new friends, or should one call their friend out on it? It seems like most people aren't stupid and they could and will figure out that people are lying or decieving or whatever you want to call it. Do people who do this regular lying want you to catch a hint or are they living for themselves in those moments?

All I know is that this has happened and continues to happen in my life and I am sick of it. I just get so tired of being tolerant. I want people around that want to be with me just the way I am, not the way they'd like me to be. I think I have that from some of my friends, but other people in my life in general I wonder about.

Humans are funny. It is interesting to think about what makes them tick, and how to react to their ticking.

Oh how I'd love to have Jesus around right now. I love thinking about life with metaphors like so many of Jesus' stories and lessons were told. Life here on earth is so complex, I wonder how complex or how simple Heaven will be. There won't be the drama there is here, we won't be human anymore, we'll be souls, spiritual beings.... wow! That will really change things.

hm, hm, hm.... any thoughts?

Early in the Morning

Hello all, near and far!!

I have been meaning to update, but never did I have the words, motivation, or yeah... that's about it. Today is a different story!

Today is the begining of a 3 week stretch of top performance in all areas from you guess who!!! I Have a big paper to write/compile by Dec. 9th for my internship, student loans to figure out, scholarships to pin down, and regular life to deal with.

My plan is to set a 20min. timer everyday and write for my internship paper. I could even do it at lunch time if I so choose, which would be really great!! After the 20 mins is up I stop! I promised a prof. I would try this method. I am combatting with my stress and procrastination about this dumb thing. I just want to do well!!!!

In other news, I got a kitten!!! I'll post a picture of her soon. She is fluffy and small and cute and cries a lot. I think she still misses her other family. They had cats, dogs, and kids there. I have had her for about 10 days. Overall she's pretty good, just whiney.

Hmmm.... what else?? Oh! Well, it feels as if my life is falling apart! YESSSS!!! In actuality I think God is trying to help me make my life come together, but in the process I am falling apart. I feel like there is something for me, a place I should be, work I should do, people I should serve. I don't think this thing is Rec. Therapy, but I know I will certainly use many of the things I learned in my course work and internships.... prayer prayer prayer... that's what I need!!

I am looking for a job for next semester and I am not going to be a student so if anyone thinks of any non-student jobs please let me know. I think I am willing to do just about anything. I am planning on having more than one job, so part-time work is perfect!!!

I am also trying to figure out where to do my second internship. If anyone has any brilliant ideas of where I can go to work with any sort of special population besides the elderly please give me a shout out!!!! Oh boy am I desperate!

I have to go to work now, I am on 1st floor this week. Last week it was a disaster, we'll see if it's any better this week! I hope it is!!!!

Chao!!

This is oneof my favorite photos!!! I made it into a stamp which adds a cool effect!

A is for APPLE!!

Here you see some party participants making the letter 'a'. I think Katie is taking a nap (sleeping on the job... sheesh!). This was around 10ish when we started to spell HALLOWEEN with our bodies. I know what you are thinking... MAN I wish I could have been there! Truth is, the fun only continues after that. Krista, Sarahhh and I were having a photo shoot until 3:00. It was great to get the creative juices flowing as well as laugh a lot and be dumb. I loved it. I'll be posting some of our photo fun soon after some tweaking!!!

I am off to take my cobbler out of the oven and then head over to Dan and Rob's for some delicious turkey!!!! SCORE!!!

More on my life later!