Monday, October 24, 2005
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Update
Hello. How do you do? That's a funny phrase isn't it? It's like... how do I do what? I don't know, it's just funny... too many dos in a short amount of time.
In my last entry I talked about Connie, my favorite resident at work who was not doing well. She passed away (or expired in technical terms) last weekend. Things just don't seem the same without her. She used to sit by the fish tank, and by a certain column in the dining room. Often I have found myself look there expecting to see her, and feeling awkward remembering she is gone. Other significant people have died since then too, and it's just a strange feeling. Now that I have rapport, and relationships with these residents it's a big deal when they die, I feel a void. This makes me want to work even harder for them, pray for them and with them more often, get to know them and care for them. It is good and bittersweet all at once.
In other news my life is at another turning point. I don't know exactly which way I am turning, but I am definitely trying to make it more towards God and whatever I am supposed to be doing for and in Him right now. I may have to give up things and take on things that are hard, uncomfortable, and may even leave hard feelings. I am hoping though that people can understand why I am doing what I am doing. Day by day a confusing mess becomes more of a comforting peace as I move closer to what I think may be a solution.
Things in IV are going to change which excites me very much. I am looking forward to all working towards a goal/idea that will finally work for the resources and people we have involved in our group right now. We have been trying so hard in the past few years to make IV great, and to rebuild, but our efforts get to a certain point and then fail, or atleast growth in one way or another stalls. I think that if we all get on board and really strive not for tradition, but for something that will work while still keeping in mind to Misson and Purpose of InterVarsity great things will be accomplished on this campus.
Dudes, I went to a sweet 80's party last night and I won a sweet prize for having the best 80's look! I wasn't even going to go to the party, but when I decided I wanted to I went all out, and it was worth it. I had a good time and it was fun to dress up. Thanks Ilene for initiating and hosting!!!
Today I went to the Hunan house. I must say that it is not a good idea for me to go to a buffet. I just don't eat enough to make it worth it. Unless of course it is Ponderosa! Ponderosa has all my favorites. But seriously, when I am eating rice, and chicken, there is only so much I can eat and that's not even a full plate. It was very delicous, but in the future I'll abstain for a menu restaurant. Besides the food our conversation was great. It was Me, Megan, Jeff, Nate and Jesse. There were good laughs, theology, fortunes/proverbs that didn't make sense, and meaningful conversation. It was refreshing to go out and have such a good time talking eventhough all of us aren't all buddy buddy or anything.
Last night Lisa stayed over which was nice. It was fun to talk about life and have a visitor. She said something that inspired me. She said that she sat down and made a list of all the things she wants to do before she settles down with a family. She said she didn't realize all the things she wanted to do! I think I am going to do it. The other day I made a list of all the things I was longing to do... you know, meaningful life changing things. Now I am going to include those with all the fun and maybe useless things I want to do!!! I'll post it when I am done.
Ok, I am off to have a chat with Ms. Kristin.
PEACE OUT YO!!
In my last entry I talked about Connie, my favorite resident at work who was not doing well. She passed away (or expired in technical terms) last weekend. Things just don't seem the same without her. She used to sit by the fish tank, and by a certain column in the dining room. Often I have found myself look there expecting to see her, and feeling awkward remembering she is gone. Other significant people have died since then too, and it's just a strange feeling. Now that I have rapport, and relationships with these residents it's a big deal when they die, I feel a void. This makes me want to work even harder for them, pray for them and with them more often, get to know them and care for them. It is good and bittersweet all at once.
In other news my life is at another turning point. I don't know exactly which way I am turning, but I am definitely trying to make it more towards God and whatever I am supposed to be doing for and in Him right now. I may have to give up things and take on things that are hard, uncomfortable, and may even leave hard feelings. I am hoping though that people can understand why I am doing what I am doing. Day by day a confusing mess becomes more of a comforting peace as I move closer to what I think may be a solution.
Things in IV are going to change which excites me very much. I am looking forward to all working towards a goal/idea that will finally work for the resources and people we have involved in our group right now. We have been trying so hard in the past few years to make IV great, and to rebuild, but our efforts get to a certain point and then fail, or atleast growth in one way or another stalls. I think that if we all get on board and really strive not for tradition, but for something that will work while still keeping in mind to Misson and Purpose of InterVarsity great things will be accomplished on this campus.
Dudes, I went to a sweet 80's party last night and I won a sweet prize for having the best 80's look! I wasn't even going to go to the party, but when I decided I wanted to I went all out, and it was worth it. I had a good time and it was fun to dress up. Thanks Ilene for initiating and hosting!!!
Today I went to the Hunan house. I must say that it is not a good idea for me to go to a buffet. I just don't eat enough to make it worth it. Unless of course it is Ponderosa! Ponderosa has all my favorites. But seriously, when I am eating rice, and chicken, there is only so much I can eat and that's not even a full plate. It was very delicous, but in the future I'll abstain for a menu restaurant. Besides the food our conversation was great. It was Me, Megan, Jeff, Nate and Jesse. There were good laughs, theology, fortunes/proverbs that didn't make sense, and meaningful conversation. It was refreshing to go out and have such a good time talking eventhough all of us aren't all buddy buddy or anything.
Last night Lisa stayed over which was nice. It was fun to talk about life and have a visitor. She said something that inspired me. She said that she sat down and made a list of all the things she wants to do before she settles down with a family. She said she didn't realize all the things she wanted to do! I think I am going to do it. The other day I made a list of all the things I was longing to do... you know, meaningful life changing things. Now I am going to include those with all the fun and maybe useless things I want to do!!! I'll post it when I am done.
Ok, I am off to have a chat with Ms. Kristin.
PEACE OUT YO!!
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Connie
Today is a somber day. I mean, it's been ok an all. I decorated one of the dining rooms for halloween, talked to a few residents one on one, did some paperwork and data entry on the computer. All of that has been alright. Tonight I am going to a training session for work to get a new program started here about famous artwork. After that I am hanging out with Megan which I am very much looking forward to. There are two things though that are preventing my day from being great.
One is that a guy named Claude died last night. He was so cute and when I'd walk by him he'd say "toot toot doodle oot" or other little noises. I found out he'd passed this morning when I got to work. The other reason my day is not excellent is because my favorite resident, Connie is not doing well. She had a stroke this weekend and they are saying she probably won't make it through the night. I am very sad to see her struggling to breathe, face drooping, and no words coming from her. I tried praying for her, I hope she can feel some comfort and peace. I will definitely morn when she is gone.
Well, my lunch break is over so I am off to do some more paperwork! WOOT!
One is that a guy named Claude died last night. He was so cute and when I'd walk by him he'd say "toot toot doodle oot" or other little noises. I found out he'd passed this morning when I got to work. The other reason my day is not excellent is because my favorite resident, Connie is not doing well. She had a stroke this weekend and they are saying she probably won't make it through the night. I am very sad to see her struggling to breathe, face drooping, and no words coming from her. I tried praying for her, I hope she can feel some comfort and peace. I will definitely morn when she is gone.
Well, my lunch break is over so I am off to do some more paperwork! WOOT!
Sunday, October 09, 2005
UGH!
I just wrote a lengthy and enjoyable post and then it got erased! What a lameo thing to happen!
Here is a very short version:
I have been feeling really good this past week, my sickness must be gone.
I spent a lot of time with Maria this weekend, tons of hugs and love, fun testing her smartness and teaching her things (she can sort colors!!). I LOVE being with her.
Megan and I are searching through a book while I search at work for the secrets of the masons and how Lemony Snicket's books are secretly a way to reveal the mysteries of the Masons: Both thrilling and enjoyable.
That is all, have a nice day!
Here is a very short version:
I have been feeling really good this past week, my sickness must be gone.
I spent a lot of time with Maria this weekend, tons of hugs and love, fun testing her smartness and teaching her things (she can sort colors!!). I LOVE being with her.
Megan and I are searching through a book while I search at work for the secrets of the masons and how Lemony Snicket's books are secretly a way to reveal the mysteries of the Masons: Both thrilling and enjoyable.
That is all, have a nice day!
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Life goes on
Well, my worst fears did not come true. I do not as far as I know have a terminal/scary condition that will effect my internship and possibley the rest of my life. However, it does still hurt a little when I breathe in deeply... hmmm I have been feeling pretty much back to normal besides fatigue here and there. I try to search for tasks at work to keep myself awake at times.
Things with my internship are going well. Tomorrow I am going to shadow my boss. It should be pretty interesting. For the next three days our facility is being evaluated by the state. Tensions are high and administrators are freaking out. It's kinda fun to see people running around. Also, every time I walk by some one, because I am a newer face, they look at my name tag immeadiatly to see if I am from state. It's amusing.
Ok, so I am off to babysit! Hopefully the kids are in bed!!!
Things with my internship are going well. Tomorrow I am going to shadow my boss. It should be pretty interesting. For the next three days our facility is being evaluated by the state. Tensions are high and administrators are freaking out. It's kinda fun to see people running around. Also, every time I walk by some one, because I am a newer face, they look at my name tag immeadiatly to see if I am from state. It's amusing.
Ok, so I am off to babysit! Hopefully the kids are in bed!!!
Sunday, September 25, 2005
SCARED
I am so scared right now. I wish I could say it was a thunderstorm, or the dark, or shadows that I am convinced are monsters when really they're the trees outside.
I am scared of tomorrow. I don't want to do this alone and I feel so alone. At this point my sickness could be anything and by tomorrow I'll know if it's something I have been fearing for a long time, or something I can take an antibiotic, a few days of rest and be back to normal in no time.
I don't know what kinds of tests the doctor will do, I don't know how long it will take to get the results back, I don't know if I'll have to go to another doctor to get answers.
I am thirteen hours away from either dispelling my "silly fear" or making some of my worst nightmares come true.
My fear may be irrational, may be unwaranted, may seem rediculous... but I have been sick for a month, that's gotta make one worry.
I feel exhausted and restless all at once.
I am going to watch a movie with my grandma to try and help get my mind off things.
Thank you to everyone who has been so good to me through all this ickyness of me being sick, thank you for being concerned, encouraging, patient, kind, and for checking up on me. I appreciate it more than you know.
And to my friends on the bus; Tricia, Nick, and Michelle: Talking to you three tonight helped me feel better and more loved. Kristin, talking to you made me think about something exciting and beyond the world of me, thank you for calling me.
I am scared of tomorrow. I don't want to do this alone and I feel so alone. At this point my sickness could be anything and by tomorrow I'll know if it's something I have been fearing for a long time, or something I can take an antibiotic, a few days of rest and be back to normal in no time.
I don't know what kinds of tests the doctor will do, I don't know how long it will take to get the results back, I don't know if I'll have to go to another doctor to get answers.
I am thirteen hours away from either dispelling my "silly fear" or making some of my worst nightmares come true.
My fear may be irrational, may be unwaranted, may seem rediculous... but I have been sick for a month, that's gotta make one worry.
I feel exhausted and restless all at once.
I am going to watch a movie with my grandma to try and help get my mind off things.
Thank you to everyone who has been so good to me through all this ickyness of me being sick, thank you for being concerned, encouraging, patient, kind, and for checking up on me. I appreciate it more than you know.
And to my friends on the bus; Tricia, Nick, and Michelle: Talking to you three tonight helped me feel better and more loved. Kristin, talking to you made me think about something exciting and beyond the world of me, thank you for calling me.
Friday, September 23, 2005
NEW POST
Hi.
Well, to spare everyone from my true life I feel I should make up a new one... one that is as romantic, spontaneous and lovely as Joy's. But I will continue on with my own, which is pretty sweet anyway.
The past month here at school has been interesting, challenging, fun, as well as a less emphasized, but very present crappy due to being sick.
I started my internship, and as many of you who talk to me regularly know, I love it. I am making meaningful relationships with my co-workers, and creating wonderful bonds with my residents. Unlike the other staff, I as an intern, work both 1st and sencond floor. The rest of the recreation staff are assigned to just one floor. This makes for two things: more to remember, and more people to care for.
I like getting to know the residents, talking to them, and wheeling them around in their chairs. I have many stories if anyone cares to hear them, and I might just tell you even if you don't. heh.
Just today I had to go in to talk to a new lady and fill out an Activity Assesment where I ask an individual about their interests or things they'd like to be involved in. When I went in and asked the lady how she was doing she replied, "Well, I had a throwing up session right after therapy, and then I went to something else and they brought me back here and I just had another throwing up session." She tells me this while holding a puke container, luckily it was not used yet. The whole time I was praying that she didn't puke on me. :)
Other than my internship and a month long sickness that I am going to the doctor about on Monday and will fill you in on later, my life has been full of friends, IV, TV, and more IV. :) I am the large group coordinator this year, which is something I've never done before, but am enjoying flying by the seat of my pants for now.
I am going home this weekend and I get to see my family and my Sandy, and my baby, ohhh and the BELLY!!! For those of you who don't know Sandy is pregnant again! I think it's a boy. I can't wait to get home to squeeze everyone.
Now it is time for... da da da DAH!!! That's right MORE IV!!! Tonight is fun-night for open house and we're going to deerfield park! WOOT WOOT!!
Well, to spare everyone from my true life I feel I should make up a new one... one that is as romantic, spontaneous and lovely as Joy's. But I will continue on with my own, which is pretty sweet anyway.
The past month here at school has been interesting, challenging, fun, as well as a less emphasized, but very present crappy due to being sick.
I started my internship, and as many of you who talk to me regularly know, I love it. I am making meaningful relationships with my co-workers, and creating wonderful bonds with my residents. Unlike the other staff, I as an intern, work both 1st and sencond floor. The rest of the recreation staff are assigned to just one floor. This makes for two things: more to remember, and more people to care for.
I like getting to know the residents, talking to them, and wheeling them around in their chairs. I have many stories if anyone cares to hear them, and I might just tell you even if you don't. heh.
Just today I had to go in to talk to a new lady and fill out an Activity Assesment where I ask an individual about their interests or things they'd like to be involved in. When I went in and asked the lady how she was doing she replied, "Well, I had a throwing up session right after therapy, and then I went to something else and they brought me back here and I just had another throwing up session." She tells me this while holding a puke container, luckily it was not used yet. The whole time I was praying that she didn't puke on me. :)
Other than my internship and a month long sickness that I am going to the doctor about on Monday and will fill you in on later, my life has been full of friends, IV, TV, and more IV. :) I am the large group coordinator this year, which is something I've never done before, but am enjoying flying by the seat of my pants for now.
I am going home this weekend and I get to see my family and my Sandy, and my baby, ohhh and the BELLY!!! For those of you who don't know Sandy is pregnant again! I think it's a boy. I can't wait to get home to squeeze everyone.
Now it is time for... da da da DAH!!! That's right MORE IV!!! Tonight is fun-night for open house and we're going to deerfield park! WOOT WOOT!!
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
I'm BAAAACK!!!!
Oh man!
I am back in Mt. Pleasant and boy am I happy to be here! I am hanging out with my buddy Lisa, acctually she went on a round cause she's a cool RA.
Today I got my haircut again. I am bald now... just kidding! It is shorter than the first time I cut it, but I like it! It's all spikey in the back which is enjoyable.
I was supposed to have a get together at my place today, but I ended up going over to Lisa's and getting Hotwings with her. She loved them so much, and it made me so happy! Sometimes I forget how much Lisa and I connect when we don't talk very often. I really enjoy her company and I think we can relate quite well to each other.
Ok, I am done with this now. I have to talk to my friends now.
I am back in Mt. Pleasant and boy am I happy to be here! I am hanging out with my buddy Lisa, acctually she went on a round cause she's a cool RA.
Today I got my haircut again. I am bald now... just kidding! It is shorter than the first time I cut it, but I like it! It's all spikey in the back which is enjoyable.
I was supposed to have a get together at my place today, but I ended up going over to Lisa's and getting Hotwings with her. She loved them so much, and it made me so happy! Sometimes I forget how much Lisa and I connect when we don't talk very often. I really enjoy her company and I think we can relate quite well to each other.
Ok, I am done with this now. I have to talk to my friends now.
Monday, August 15, 2005
WEEK!!
I just wrote a post a few days back, a really good, informative, and perhaps entertaining post!!! But then, my computer went all crazy on me and deleted it!
So, I am here now to tell you that things are good.
This week... my last week at home is going to be quite busy.
I am working, babysitting, hanging with my granny, and also with Nick.
I move back to good ol' Mt. Pleaz on Tuesday! I am bringing my bongo game and hot sauce so watch out!!!
I am looking forward to seeing everyone, finally being in the same town as some of my dearest and most favorite people, and living in a place I hold so close to my heart.
For now I am going to bed. I have to get up early to watch zee babay. She is getting so big, so fun, so smart. She signs "please" now, but instead of rubbing her chest like you're supposed to, she rubs her tummy. Guess it's all the same to her.
Ok Dudes, I'm OUT!
PS. I watched "Shall we Dance" tonight. I'd recommend it! I have it on VHS if you want to borrow it!
So, I am here now to tell you that things are good.
This week... my last week at home is going to be quite busy.
I am working, babysitting, hanging with my granny, and also with Nick.
I move back to good ol' Mt. Pleaz on Tuesday! I am bringing my bongo game and hot sauce so watch out!!!
I am looking forward to seeing everyone, finally being in the same town as some of my dearest and most favorite people, and living in a place I hold so close to my heart.
For now I am going to bed. I have to get up early to watch zee babay. She is getting so big, so fun, so smart. She signs "please" now, but instead of rubbing her chest like you're supposed to, she rubs her tummy. Guess it's all the same to her.
Ok Dudes, I'm OUT!
PS. I watched "Shall we Dance" tonight. I'd recommend it! I have it on VHS if you want to borrow it!
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Friday, August 05, 2005
Puppy
My puppy is supposed to be born any minute! Princess, my mom's Miniature Pincher was breed with her manly friend Spike, who is a Chihuahua. I'll add that he is about hlaf her size... she is kinda chubby. Spike is four pounds and Princess is 10 pounds when she's not pregnant. I asked my mom if she would breed them again so I could have one of the puppies because I fell in love with one of the "Pinuahua" from the first batch that has been promised to Josh. That puppies name is Stevie, after Stevie Wonder. Stevie has a problem called "water on the brain" that causes him to run in circles, bang into walls, and bob his head back and forth like Stevie Wonder. A perfect dog for my brother I might add! He is even tall and lanky... oh and he prances. lol
Anyway, I have been looking forward to this puppy since the last batch (about a year ago) when my mom said I could have one. She said she would pay for it's shots and get me all set up with a "puppy starter kit". When it's ready to leave it's mother it will be able to fit in my pocket!! AWWW!!!
BUT there is some sad news about my puppy endeavors. I didn't think it would be a problem for me to have a puppy where I am living because the Fountains let Joy have her very large and very charming cat, Bubba. My puppy, even when full grown will be half the size of Bubba. When I asked them on the phone if it would be alright they said no!!! Oh, I was heart broken. I want so badly to have a little compainion to come home to, one that will always love me and want cuddles. Since Maria needs to stay with her parents I thought a puppy was the next best thing! Oh.... I can not tell you how very sad I am right now.
I am going up to Mt. Pleasant on Monday and I am going to talk to them again. I am going to explain just how small this little pup will be and explain that it can't really cause any trouble and if it did I would sign a contract to repair/replace anything that needed to be. I am hoping if I give them my "sad face" and a good argument then it might work. I have just been looking forward to it for so long!
Anyway, I have been looking forward to this puppy since the last batch (about a year ago) when my mom said I could have one. She said she would pay for it's shots and get me all set up with a "puppy starter kit". When it's ready to leave it's mother it will be able to fit in my pocket!! AWWW!!!
BUT there is some sad news about my puppy endeavors. I didn't think it would be a problem for me to have a puppy where I am living because the Fountains let Joy have her very large and very charming cat, Bubba. My puppy, even when full grown will be half the size of Bubba. When I asked them on the phone if it would be alright they said no!!! Oh, I was heart broken. I want so badly to have a little compainion to come home to, one that will always love me and want cuddles. Since Maria needs to stay with her parents I thought a puppy was the next best thing! Oh.... I can not tell you how very sad I am right now.
I am going up to Mt. Pleasant on Monday and I am going to talk to them again. I am going to explain just how small this little pup will be and explain that it can't really cause any trouble and if it did I would sign a contract to repair/replace anything that needed to be. I am hoping if I give them my "sad face" and a good argument then it might work. I have just been looking forward to it for so long!
Adventures in Grandma Land
Hi.
So, lately I have been doing a lot of things. Not big things, just quite a few little things.
The other day I came home from work and told my grandma I wanted to go somewhere fun, do something fun, or spend a rediculous amount of money on something I don't need. Now when I said I wanted to spend money I was of course talking about her money and not mine! heh...
ANYWAY, we made plans for the next day (Wednesday) because it was my day off. Our plan was to go to an antique store or two, and then go some place I wanted to go. We settled for this choice after ruling out a cruise. We thought one day would not be enough time for a cruise. :)
So, Wednesday comes and both antique stores we go to are closed! Apparently places like these are only open on the weekend these days. This being said it was my turn. I had a few items that I was dreaming to spend money on:
A Clavinova
A MAC laptop
A Digital Camera
Two Video games and accessories
Jewelry of sorts
and
A purse because honey exploded in mine
That was biggest dream to smallest... I discussed my dream with my grandma and decided I was in an electronics mood so we went for the video games. Grandma's don't know much about video games and so it wasn't very easy for her to catch on to the vision... I did end up getting three DVDs though... she knows about movies.
We left the video game store with the conclusion that grandma would check her finances at home and see if she could get me what I wanted. I learned soon after it was just code for, "it's easier for me to spend my money on other things that I know about, so you have to wait for your electronic bongos that I know nothing about".
We decided to skip over to JC Penny to see if we could at least get me a purse. We went to the purse section and I ended up getting two, and a pair of sunglasses. heh...
For those of you who don't know, I spent most of my early childhood with my grandparents. They live right next door to me and I went to their house nearly everyday. This means not only am I very close to my grandma, but that she lavished me with expensive gifts all growing up. I remember going shopping with her and she'd buy me expensive clothes at private clothes shops... yeah... I know... ew.
OK... so back to my story. We walked past some khaki capris that caught my eye because they were cute and they were 70% off! Grandma suggested that I might as well try on some clothes while I was there since there were such great sales. I agreed it would be a good idea. My arms were bursting with clothes by the time I made it to the dressing room... she just kept loading me up. We were having a good time. I really was enjoying shopping with her. We were both doing something we really enjoyed and we could relate to eachother.
Then we got to the cash register. Before we arrived I asked if I should just pick a few of my favorite things, but of course grandma insisted I just take them all. I thought the total would be a little over $100, maybe $150......... $300!!!! IT WAS Stinkin' $300!!!!!!!!!! I freaked out and was like... "No, that's too much"... we can't spend that much, I was thinking... oh man! I was panacked. I have never (or atleast never known that I was) spending that much money on so little clothes, and never all at once. I was ready to hyperventilate. Grandma of course insisted it was ok, although I think she was a little in shock too! We went out into the lobby and I looked over the receipt pondering how it could have possibly added up to that much. I bought quite a few nice items, and I never shop at JC Penny unless something is $15 or less. All the clothes I bought were for work this fall, so it turned out they were reasonable for the amount and quality.
I don't like this being an adult and buying real clothes thing. I can't believe I own that much worth of clothes... and they are not even complete outfits. I still have to get a few shirts. I am just blown away. I haven't wanted to look at clothes or even get dressed in anything but my pajamas. UGH! I feel so bad. I just keep thinking about all the little kids in this and other countries and how much $300 could buy them. It makes me feel sick.
So anyway, I had a really great time until I got to the cash register. Today my grandma wants to take me back out and get me the video game I wanted. She really is a spender... I guess though, she doesn't really have anybody else to spend it on anymore, and she is very generous in her giving.
I have another story, but I'll put it in a separate blog.... this one is really long!
So, lately I have been doing a lot of things. Not big things, just quite a few little things.
The other day I came home from work and told my grandma I wanted to go somewhere fun, do something fun, or spend a rediculous amount of money on something I don't need. Now when I said I wanted to spend money I was of course talking about her money and not mine! heh...
ANYWAY, we made plans for the next day (Wednesday) because it was my day off. Our plan was to go to an antique store or two, and then go some place I wanted to go. We settled for this choice after ruling out a cruise. We thought one day would not be enough time for a cruise. :)
So, Wednesday comes and both antique stores we go to are closed! Apparently places like these are only open on the weekend these days. This being said it was my turn. I had a few items that I was dreaming to spend money on:
A Clavinova
A MAC laptop
A Digital Camera
Two Video games and accessories
Jewelry of sorts
and
A purse because honey exploded in mine
That was biggest dream to smallest... I discussed my dream with my grandma and decided I was in an electronics mood so we went for the video games. Grandma's don't know much about video games and so it wasn't very easy for her to catch on to the vision... I did end up getting three DVDs though... she knows about movies.
We left the video game store with the conclusion that grandma would check her finances at home and see if she could get me what I wanted. I learned soon after it was just code for, "it's easier for me to spend my money on other things that I know about, so you have to wait for your electronic bongos that I know nothing about".
We decided to skip over to JC Penny to see if we could at least get me a purse. We went to the purse section and I ended up getting two, and a pair of sunglasses. heh...
For those of you who don't know, I spent most of my early childhood with my grandparents. They live right next door to me and I went to their house nearly everyday. This means not only am I very close to my grandma, but that she lavished me with expensive gifts all growing up. I remember going shopping with her and she'd buy me expensive clothes at private clothes shops... yeah... I know... ew.
OK... so back to my story. We walked past some khaki capris that caught my eye because they were cute and they were 70% off! Grandma suggested that I might as well try on some clothes while I was there since there were such great sales. I agreed it would be a good idea. My arms were bursting with clothes by the time I made it to the dressing room... she just kept loading me up. We were having a good time. I really was enjoying shopping with her. We were both doing something we really enjoyed and we could relate to eachother.
Then we got to the cash register. Before we arrived I asked if I should just pick a few of my favorite things, but of course grandma insisted I just take them all. I thought the total would be a little over $100, maybe $150......... $300!!!! IT WAS Stinkin' $300!!!!!!!!!! I freaked out and was like... "No, that's too much"... we can't spend that much, I was thinking... oh man! I was panacked. I have never (or atleast never known that I was) spending that much money on so little clothes, and never all at once. I was ready to hyperventilate. Grandma of course insisted it was ok, although I think she was a little in shock too! We went out into the lobby and I looked over the receipt pondering how it could have possibly added up to that much. I bought quite a few nice items, and I never shop at JC Penny unless something is $15 or less. All the clothes I bought were for work this fall, so it turned out they were reasonable for the amount and quality.
I don't like this being an adult and buying real clothes thing. I can't believe I own that much worth of clothes... and they are not even complete outfits. I still have to get a few shirts. I am just blown away. I haven't wanted to look at clothes or even get dressed in anything but my pajamas. UGH! I feel so bad. I just keep thinking about all the little kids in this and other countries and how much $300 could buy them. It makes me feel sick.
So anyway, I had a really great time until I got to the cash register. Today my grandma wants to take me back out and get me the video game I wanted. She really is a spender... I guess though, she doesn't really have anybody else to spend it on anymore, and she is very generous in her giving.
I have another story, but I'll put it in a separate blog.... this one is really long!
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Stuff Stuff and more Stuff
So, I am officially back from Cali. I have been back to work and love it even more everyday! This past week I have been working every day and so it made me feel good to have some consistency. Yesterday was my day off and now today I don't work until 5:00pm. It's been a nice break.
CALIFORNIA
While I was on my trip I stayed in two different locations. One was in Temecula with my aunt and the other was with a girl who Krista knew from CAMP CHINA in Thailand. Both places were lovely and very accommodating. The first three days I stayed with my aunt. While I was with her we drove through some vineyards, went to the wild animal park, watched jeopardy, went out for Mexican food, and generally enjoyed eachothers company. I had never had the chance to get to know my aunt very well, but I have always wanted to. I have also wanted to visit her in California ever since I was a little girl. It was nice to live out a dream.
The rest of the time I was with Erin and Krista in Anaheim. We did lots of things: beach, concert, universal city walk, Rodeo drive, Hollywood Blvd., Guinness book of World Records museum, Grauman's Chinese Theatre, Toured the Kodak Theatre, Wax museum, tried to get on the Price is Right but didn't make it, drove a lot, went to Del Taco and In and Out, saw Knotts Berry Farm, went to the Orange County Fair, and watched some movies as well as playing some Super Mario Brothers!!! PHEW! That was a lot!
My favorite part of the trip was staying with my aunt, the animal park, and Kodak theatre. I discovered that I never want to live in California EVER! And that week was long enough to visit. I also learned the importance of making sure the people you're with don't mind being tourists!!! The trip had some crappy times, but overall it was good. California is very beautiful, but very tainted. Deep, I know.
YESTERDAY
Nick and I played DDR and watched million dollar baby.
TODAY
Today Nick and I are going school shopping for his new school clothes. I think I am going to protest jeans with dragons on them. :) hee hee After that I have work.
TOMORROW
I am going up to Mt. Pleasant for an interview at the Masonic Home (a long term care facility). While I am there I will also be talking to my profs and getting everything settled for the up coming year, hanging out with Megan hopefully and maybe seeing Jeff too if he's not working. ALSO, my good friend Danielle has invited me over for dinner! I think we are having chicken. WOOT WOOT! I am also very excited to sleep in my fluffy bed!!!!!!!!!!!! YES! SCORE!!!!
Ok, I am OUTTA HERE!!
CALIFORNIA
While I was on my trip I stayed in two different locations. One was in Temecula with my aunt and the other was with a girl who Krista knew from CAMP CHINA in Thailand. Both places were lovely and very accommodating. The first three days I stayed with my aunt. While I was with her we drove through some vineyards, went to the wild animal park, watched jeopardy, went out for Mexican food, and generally enjoyed eachothers company. I had never had the chance to get to know my aunt very well, but I have always wanted to. I have also wanted to visit her in California ever since I was a little girl. It was nice to live out a dream.
The rest of the time I was with Erin and Krista in Anaheim. We did lots of things: beach, concert, universal city walk, Rodeo drive, Hollywood Blvd., Guinness book of World Records museum, Grauman's Chinese Theatre, Toured the Kodak Theatre, Wax museum, tried to get on the Price is Right but didn't make it, drove a lot, went to Del Taco and In and Out, saw Knotts Berry Farm, went to the Orange County Fair, and watched some movies as well as playing some Super Mario Brothers!!! PHEW! That was a lot!
My favorite part of the trip was staying with my aunt, the animal park, and Kodak theatre. I discovered that I never want to live in California EVER! And that week was long enough to visit. I also learned the importance of making sure the people you're with don't mind being tourists!!! The trip had some crappy times, but overall it was good. California is very beautiful, but very tainted. Deep, I know.
YESTERDAY
Nick and I played DDR and watched million dollar baby.
TODAY
Today Nick and I are going school shopping for his new school clothes. I think I am going to protest jeans with dragons on them. :) hee hee After that I have work.
TOMORROW
I am going up to Mt. Pleasant for an interview at the Masonic Home (a long term care facility). While I am there I will also be talking to my profs and getting everything settled for the up coming year, hanging out with Megan hopefully and maybe seeing Jeff too if he's not working. ALSO, my good friend Danielle has invited me over for dinner! I think we are having chicken. WOOT WOOT! I am also very excited to sleep in my fluffy bed!!!!!!!!!!!! YES! SCORE!!!!
Ok, I am OUTTA HERE!!
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
California
My trip here has been great, I'll fill in details later.
I am returning home tomorrow and then have work Thursday night.
I have a surprise for some of you when I get home.
I am returning home tomorrow and then have work Thursday night.
I have a surprise for some of you when I get home.
Friday, July 08, 2005
Grandpa
My grandfather passed away on Tuesday. I saw him die. It was very unnerving. At times I still feel very creeped out... almost dirty. I have pretty much felt sick and not been able to eat much although it is getting better, especially today. I don't think I feel sick because I am sad. If you have ever seen someone die, been touching them even, you'll know why I feel sick. Everyone keeps saying he smiled before he died, but no one saw what Dad and I saw. He was smiling five minutes before he stopped breathing, but he was trying to scream when he died.
I am not missing him yet. It is strange to look over and see his body in the casket. They made him look different from how he looked in hospice; Almost like a doll... I don't like it. I haven't gone over to the casket and I try to keep my back to it. The object in the casket is a shell that once held a great man, but to me now is only a vessel. When I look around my grandma's house, or when I think about or talk to people who are very sad to hear that he is no longer living I feel sad. Personally though, for now I am not sad. I am relieved and joyful. Maybe it will hit me later.
I am going to CALIFORNIA in 3.5 days!!! I am so so excited!!! Nick is taking me to the airport and Krista is meeting us there!!! It is going to be sooo fun! I think I will poke Krista the whole way!!! hee hee If I have computer access I'll update from there.
Ok, well... I am skipping out of the visitation right now to write this... needed a little break.
Tomorrow is the funeral at the methodist church--12noon and lunch to follow. He is being creamated so there is no burial service or anything.
Talk at ya later!!!
Friday, July 01, 2005
Foolish Me
I am a fool. I am convinced that I am.
I get a blessing just in time to mess something else up that makes it seem like the blessing never happened!
Living simply is easier when one doesn't have any money. However, using money one does not have is also very easy. Especially when it has to do with calling another country to talk to a friend. I have now lost almost the exact amount that was just gifted to me the other day to fix my car.
It's times like these that I feel like such an idiot. I don't know how I am going to pay for all the crap I have to pay for. Oh yeah... and my rent is due today... ha... Dear Lord please help me.
My day was really good until about 30 minutes ago. Maria and I played all morning long and I watched Pimp My Ride... one of my favorite shows!!
I really hope I get on the Price is Right and win a large sum of money, or gifts that I can sell for a large sum of money. Is it OK to pray to win a game show?? I mean, Bob supports animal population control... that's a moral cause right?!?! :)
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Is this a joke??
There was a man that came to the orchard the other day to get some fruit trees. Obviously he had not been around in quite a few years because we do not sell fruit trees anymore. This man, I think his name was Mr. Baker, decided since he could not find anyone that he would inquire about his purchase with my Great Uncle Kenneth, who lived up above the store in the attic apartment.
When the man walked up the stairs and knocked on the door, he received no response, but heard the TV on very loudly. When he entered the room he found what he thought to be a manikin, hunched over a reclining chair in the middle of the one room apartment. "Is this a joke?", the Mr. Baker thought to himself. In just seconds Mr. Baker realized by the smell, flies, blood all over the floor, and the very bloated and rotting man with his pants half off that this certainly was not a joke, but a death!
I don't know how the rest of the story went down other than the police came with an investigator, and then the funeral home came and picked up his body. I was there when they brought his body down. We were urged not to look, and all I could smell was something that resembled manure and dead animal reeking out from under the sheet he was covered in. That poor funeral home guy had to drive all the way to Ortonville with that horrible smell!
We don't know how my uncle died, maybe the heat, maybe a heart attack, maybe he was just old. All we know is he was dead for a few days and was mostly unrecongnizable due to the decomposition and bugs. My grandma, his sister, was/is very upset by the whole thing. I can understand why because she has looked after him for many years. She loved him. We had to tell my granpa too, and we could tell it upset him as well.
Speaking of grandpa... He is declining very slowly. The doctors and nurses say he is still alive because of his strong heart and body systems. He was in such great shape from working the fields his entire life. He is drugged up, and for the most part sleeping. We can tell though that he hears us and many times understands through the morphine what is going on. Sometimes he'll smile or wink or lift his eyebrows while we talk to him. It's comforting to know he appreciates our visits.
I am tired. This whole ordeal is dragging on and on. I love my grandpa, yet it is so hard for me to see him suffer. I don't want to say I wish he were dead, but it is so hard to see him in this condition. He is a prisoner in his own body at this point. He is not strong enough to move, but he has a mind and heart that love and long to be somewhere other than where he is right now. And he can't even express that to us. We can only tell by the looks he gives us. I wonder if we took him home for a day if he'd let go. Maybe he's waiting for us to take him home... Last week he did say he was ready to go home.
I am heading to hospice right now to see how things are going after the news of my uncle. Please pray that I have strength and joy in these crappy times. Pray that I am a comfort to my family, especially my grandma, and that she can feel Gods love and peace through what I say and the love I show her. I need help saying the right things at the right times in these delicate situations. My patience is definitely being tested.
Ok, I love you all! Thank you so much to my faithful readers. It's so good to know that people actually tune in to this thing! It makes it so worth writing! And I love reading everyone else's too!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Update
Hello.
So.... I am moving back home. Just for the summer though. My job in Mt. Pleasant was not working out and so I am quitting. It was good experience but not enough hours. I got an opportunity to work at the Subway here in Goodrich again and so I am jumping on that. I will be moving in with my grandma to keep her company and help her do things. I think it will be fun and good for both of us. It will probably be hard too. I might have rules and restrictions and stuff.... AHHHHHH!!!! hee hee... I am her little fav. though so I am sure she'll let me do what I want.
Grandpa is still alive. He was looking pretty good for a few days an "upward spurt" they call it. Sometimes happens right before someone dies. Yesterday his heart was racing so fast; about twice as fast as mine! Now he is on Morphine for pain (that may have caused the racing heart) and a medicine that helps him relax. He was looking pretty awful yesterday.
Last night I stayed the night at hospice with grandma. I had a very hard and skinny bed. Grandma and I had some good giggles right before bed which was fun. I didn't get much sleep. I'll take a nap after I am done posting. Grandpa was very quiet during the night, a little too quiet. I was worried when I woke up after a few hours of not hearing him take a gurgling breath like her usually does. I woke up, heard nothing and thought... oh no, he's dead!! What do I do?? Luckily grandma woke up a few seconds later and sat up and checked on him. This morning she said he was barely breathing at that point.
I don't know how this whole death thing works exactly. Apparently everyone's different. Grandpa's roomate died yesterday. I was in the room when it happened. The man just stopped breathing. He took a few deep breaths after that, but then he was gone. It was so strange. It made me feel funny. I also felt curious so I kinda peeked over to see what he looked like. The room got very quiet, and stayed that way for a while. It was strange knowing there was a dead guy in the next room. His family was sitting all around him. Weird I tell you.... just weird. I wonder how it will work with us.
I was going to go back up to school today to finish up my class, but now my key won't go into my ignition. Before it took a little jiggling, now all the jiggling in the world couldn't help. It must be from the accident... somethings out of place or something. The car place said that they can't get me in until the end of the week. So, going back up is out of the question for now. Good thing my prof was understanding of my situation before I left. If not, I'd be in trouble. I hope I can work something out with her. This is my last class and I don't want to mess it up!!
Ok, I am going back to my house now for a nap. After that I have to start writing this paper for my class so I don't fail!!!!
PEACE!
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