Disconnected

Well, this was the most disconnected holiday weekend ever!!! To the left you will find my disconnected face.

It all started on Thursday when I stayed home alone upon orders of my grandmother. I had planned to travel to her house (45mins away) for a delicious meal and a chance to see her and grandpa after 4 months of nearly zero contact. She said the roads were too bad.

Instead of turkey (which I must mention is one of my most favorite foods), I ate pizza rolls for lunch, took back movies that I had rented on Wednesday (2 for 1!) and decided to go to Mejier while I was out to make something "special" to eat for dinner. I can't really afford to do a thing like that, but I thought since it was Thanksgiving, and I was lonely it was justified enough. Well, justification never wins, and I should know this by now, but once again I am slapped in the face with my own actions.
So, I went to Mejier and was walking around the isles thinking that I'd get anything that looked good... just go for it! I passed by some chicken, pizzas, more chicken, frozen dinners... nothing seemed pleasing. Then I saw them, BUTTERY BISCUITS!!! AND THEY WERE ON SALE!!! Oh boy! I decided I'd get some, but needed something to go with them. Across the way I spotted frozen chicken bites that you warm up in the microwave, like the chicken you find at a chinese restaurant. Then I remembered the chinese restaurant Great Wall was open, cause I noticed it while returning my movies. I said, what the heck, I'll just go get some!!
My adventure continues.... I order General Tso's chicken and an order of Crab Rangoons. Mind you, I only like chinese food that is not sweet and General Tso's chicken is supposed to be spicy. I also don't really like crab at all, but the other day some co-workers of mine got some crab rangoon's and I liked them cause they didn't really have much crab in them that I could tell. So I get my loot, spending too much on it, but justifying that I'd get a few meals out of the deal so it was worth it. I brought it home, opened it up and eyed it expectantly.... I couldn't wait for spicy and cheesey goodness!
SOOOO.... the food sucked! The chicken wasn't even a hint spicy, not even a little burn! it tasted like candy, sweet and sticky! eWWWWWW!!! If I wanted candy I would have gotten some sweettarts! Then I thought, "well, at least I have the crab rangoons!".... no dice. They were so FULL of crab! I couldn't even pick it out! I ate around the edges and called it good. Basically I wasted too much money on crap that I forced down just to teach myself a lesson.

Thursday ended and I was looking forward to get back to work on Friday just so I didn't have to be alone.

Friday was good. I planned a special party for the residents. We had a "t" party! There was tinsel, tang, tea, TINGO, Turtles, and Triscuts! Everyone had a name tag on and so their names started with 'T'. It was a grand time.

I came home with another boring night ahead of me.... and that is just what it turned out to be. Sarah took her laptop home and the library was closed so I didn't even have the internet to amuse me.

Saturday was a productive day, I cleaned a lot! I feel a lot better about living in my apt. now that it's clean. I sorted through old and unwanted food giving away what I could and pitching the rest. My kitten and I had a good time bonding, but it just wasn't the same as a good human!

This morning I was REALLY prodcutive. I did the following all before 9:30am (that should tell you how early I got up... ew again) I cleaned out my refrigerator... acctually took trays out and scrubbed! I cleaned the microwave which was disgusting! I did some more dishes, cleaned the dining room table, and I finshed making my curtain for my room. Of course I discovered that the kitten peed on it so I have to wash it before I put it up, but at least it's done!

I went to church at 10:30. It was a good service!I sat by a cute couple, talked to some friends afterwards, played a new intstrument made of wood... it was indonesian, but I can't remember the name of it.

Now it's now. I am finally connected with the world through the good ol' internet and there are no e-mails to be found, no friends online, nothing... what a sucess! heh. I think I am going to go clean my bathroom. It's the last room to be spiffed and then the whole apt. will be clean(besides sarahh's room!).

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!!!

The Truth comes out... this is who I was really with this weekend and as you can see we were having a wonderful not to mention romantic time!

All Turkeys Eve

Yes it is true. Today is the Eve of many a Turkey's plunder and humiliation. Personally I would not like to be stuffed and slowly cooked for several hours and then put on display only to be cut up and eaten. All of this is only after getting ahead chopped off, feathers pulled and a good ol' fashioned gutting! Gee, I love Thanksgiving!!! Seriously though, I love eating Turkey! Thanks God!


Today I work, then I go up to my Grandma and Grandpa K's for Thanksgiving day. My mom, her girlfriend, and my brother, and one of my uncles will all be in attendance. I hope it is a good day. The last time I went to Grandma's with my mom and brother for a holiday we all had a terrible fight!

On Friday I work again, and then it's the WEEKEND!!! Almost everyone will be gone this weekend so I think I might be productive and clean up the apartment really thuroughly. Then I will write my paper that I was supposed to start Sunday. So far I am behind 1hour of work time. So much for my 20 minute plan!!

So, to all who celebrate Thanksgiving, have an enjoyable weekend away or close by!

Things that make one question life

If you thought that people in your life were lying to you, or as Lisa would say, are saying things that are "hard for you to believe" when they say it, how would you react?
I mean, this happens all the time... and maybe people aren't even lying, but distorting reality, leaving out details, or bending the truth. How does one know how to trust a person who does this on a regular basis? Does it mean one should just take a hint and find new friends, or should one call their friend out on it? It seems like most people aren't stupid and they could and will figure out that people are lying or decieving or whatever you want to call it. Do people who do this regular lying want you to catch a hint or are they living for themselves in those moments?

All I know is that this has happened and continues to happen in my life and I am sick of it. I just get so tired of being tolerant. I want people around that want to be with me just the way I am, not the way they'd like me to be. I think I have that from some of my friends, but other people in my life in general I wonder about.

Humans are funny. It is interesting to think about what makes them tick, and how to react to their ticking.

Oh how I'd love to have Jesus around right now. I love thinking about life with metaphors like so many of Jesus' stories and lessons were told. Life here on earth is so complex, I wonder how complex or how simple Heaven will be. There won't be the drama there is here, we won't be human anymore, we'll be souls, spiritual beings.... wow! That will really change things.

hm, hm, hm.... any thoughts?

Early in the Morning

Hello all, near and far!!

I have been meaning to update, but never did I have the words, motivation, or yeah... that's about it. Today is a different story!

Today is the begining of a 3 week stretch of top performance in all areas from you guess who!!! I Have a big paper to write/compile by Dec. 9th for my internship, student loans to figure out, scholarships to pin down, and regular life to deal with.

My plan is to set a 20min. timer everyday and write for my internship paper. I could even do it at lunch time if I so choose, which would be really great!! After the 20 mins is up I stop! I promised a prof. I would try this method. I am combatting with my stress and procrastination about this dumb thing. I just want to do well!!!!

In other news, I got a kitten!!! I'll post a picture of her soon. She is fluffy and small and cute and cries a lot. I think she still misses her other family. They had cats, dogs, and kids there. I have had her for about 10 days. Overall she's pretty good, just whiney.

Hmmm.... what else?? Oh! Well, it feels as if my life is falling apart! YESSSS!!! In actuality I think God is trying to help me make my life come together, but in the process I am falling apart. I feel like there is something for me, a place I should be, work I should do, people I should serve. I don't think this thing is Rec. Therapy, but I know I will certainly use many of the things I learned in my course work and internships.... prayer prayer prayer... that's what I need!!

I am looking for a job for next semester and I am not going to be a student so if anyone thinks of any non-student jobs please let me know. I think I am willing to do just about anything. I am planning on having more than one job, so part-time work is perfect!!!

I am also trying to figure out where to do my second internship. If anyone has any brilliant ideas of where I can go to work with any sort of special population besides the elderly please give me a shout out!!!! Oh boy am I desperate!

I have to go to work now, I am on 1st floor this week. Last week it was a disaster, we'll see if it's any better this week! I hope it is!!!!

Chao!!