A New Day | A New Year | A New Decade

As the clock has just struck midnight, today is my last day as a woman in her twenties. This birthday is hitting me pretty hard...30... it just seems big, unknown, old... haha! I don't really know what I want to say, I just felt like I needed to write, needed to mark this day, this new season in life with some sort of expression.

I want this next decade to be full of new experiences, and coming into a more confident and settled sense of self. I want more freedom! I want more joy! I want more Jesus! I want to step out more in boldness and love of others. I want to pray more. I want to step more deeply into the Word... it is calling me. I want to write more, sing more, dance more, eat more vegetables, take more walks, travel and explore, sit and stretch and cleanse. I want it all... and I want to do it all with Christ.

As I have spent a lot of this last decade in a state of hibernation leaning towards stagnation in the weariness of waiting, I think it is finally time to let in the fullness of what God has for me. I came to shore for a bit and built a little sand tunnel, but now I will run with reckless abandon towards the crashing waves of the Kingdom of Heaven.

I have been released to dive in. I've been guaranteed back up in the form of wisdom and friendship and angels. I have the tools and now it is time to go. The Lord is beckoning and I am ready to answer. I am ready to jump in the boat... or out of it... I'm just ready.

I am grateful. I am hopeful. I am a bit unquiet in the anticipation of what is to come. I am willing. I am like a soda bottle who has been slightly shaken and can't wait to explode it's sweet fizzy bubbles all over the place while also feeling like the face of the victim of said soda shaking... squinting, standing back a bit wondering if I should just not open up the can, but sure that even with the mess the adventure of the unknown will be well worth it.

I am prayerful. I am counting on the healing power of Jesus... His strength, wisdom, grace, love, presence, angels, Word, comfort, truth, and example are the foundation of making these next years count.