I feel as if I a floating in a place I don't belong. I want to sleep all day long, crawl in a hole and only emerge when I have to. I feel so happy at times and into things here and then I feel so disconnected.
I feel sick. I can't eat without feeling sick. My head hurts. I just want someone to hold me.
I am thirsty for God's healing, but can't quite reach out to grab it. I am stuck.
Even now my eyes are drooping, and my head feels heavy though I just woke up two hours ago.
My life seems useless. My purpose is failing me. I don't know where to go or what to do. This is so weird.
I can't bring myself to study hard. Everytime I start I end up finding something else to do. It doesn't make sense. I like my classes.
I miss the baby and Sandy. My heart often longs to be with them. I miss seeing Megan... we are both in the same town yet so busy. The few times we have hung out have been recently and have been wonderful. I want more of those times.
I miss Joylynn.
I have to take a test in twenty minutes and I have no idea how I'll do on it. Good thing we get to drop our lowest grade.
So, this is why I haven't updated... didn't want a depressing scene.
For any of my lovely praying friends, if you could pray for my strength, motivation, self worth, and passion I would greatly apprieciate it. I am desperate for God's healing touch.
